More of the same...

So, waiting for the attorney to review the below agreement...

Tonight my first children were here for dinner & I realized deep down inside, I really don't want to start over. Is that so bad? And yet, to know, that I must. In order to be true to myself, that which I have valued my whole life, I must start over, begin anew, shepherd a new young life, be a parent again.

I still can't see me back with a stroller or a baby pouch and waking in the middle of the night and all that other stuff that comes from parenting. I'd so wanted to be on the downhill side of all of that.